I know we haven’t seen each other or even talk to each other in a while, but I want you to know that I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately, and I want you to know that I miss you. Not I regret what happened or I want to see you again, just I miss you, just I miss you. It’s so strange to think that someone I knew so well is now a total stranger to me, that sometimes I go entire days without thinking about you. Most of the time, I let myself forget because it’s easier. But then I find something, a photo, a gift, the stupid love letters we used to give each other, and the full weight of what’s being lost crashes down on me.
Part of me wants to see you again, to hold you again, to kiss you again, but all of those feelings become empty thoughts when I look back now remembering that love isn’t always what it seems. It’s just so easy to forget. But this isn’t regret, we had our reasons for ending it, and they are as valid as ever. But back at the start, we didn’t need any reasons to fall in love. We just did.
The reasons came at the end, and everything since then has been about reasons. And that’s good, means that one day I’ll find someone who won’t have to say goodbye to me. But a part of me just misses loving someone and having them love you back. That’s all. I guess what I’m saying is, I hope things are good with you. I hope everything is great. I hope everything is great. I hope you have found a love that’s all the things ours couldn’t be. But just a small part of me hopes that you still remember what it was like before all the reasons and that you miss me too."
Imagine composing and typing all of those words that came from your heart to send it to someone that you really loved and miss and then all of the sudden, just delete it and pretend that it didn't come out from you. Pretend that you just don't really care because you know that the other person doesn't feel the same way anymore.
It hurts right? This is something that I found on Youtube last week by The Beyond Project and since then, I couldn't forget about it. I just can't. Maybe because I can relate on how sad to end things between someone you really love due to "reasons" or maybe I really do miss someone too.
I just want to share this to you guys because it was really good. Play the video, close your eyes and imagine how hurtful it is. You wouldn't notice that your eyes are already sweating. Everytime I hear this, my lungs just suddenly feel so heavy, and you know why...